God’s doing a new thing and fulfilling an old promise

Jesus, the gift that Heals our Hearts

Today I am excited to be writing again as God is doing a new thing with my wife and I here in Winnipeg as we start our ministry assignment phase on Trek with Multiply https://multiply.net/ our supervising, training and partnering ministry.   My assignment on Trek through  FireRunnerMusic & Ministries is to come along side Living Word Temple and other churches and ministries the Lord seems to have networked together who have a burden for North End Winnipeg.  One of those ministries is  Winnipeg Centre Vineyard where my wife began her Trek assignment as Director of Youth and Children’s Ministries and whose building we have been using to live in and train in as Trekkers since August 30th.   This week I began singing alongside the worship pastor at Living Word Temple Cherie Bright on their FB page live on Wednesday and had the opportunity to sing a song in advance of the lead pastor Paul Winter’s message on how Jesus brings hope and healing in the midst of despair and depression.   FireRunnerMusic & Ministries is the name of our music minstrel record label and ministry.  Our vision is to come alongside the local church to be a part of igniting a prairie wide awakening that has a global impact. How do we do that you may ask?   By being filled with the Holy Spirit and letting Him lead in the singing of psalms, hymns and spiritual songs to one another and singing to the Lord Jesus and giving thanks to the Father in Jesus name through song. (Ephesians 5:18) The Holy Spirit is the River of Life and where He flows through us life and healing results in those He touches.   FireRunnerMusic is about being vessels to be filled with the Holy Spirit to minister to Jesus and to each other the love of God in it’s many forms and manifestations which include inner healing.

One of the things that really has encouraged me lately is I’ve been singing a lot of both pre-written and spontaneous songs that are new this last month on Facebook.  One of the things Jesus spoke to me about this minstrel ministry is that He would give me songs that would minister healing to people who were traumatized and in fear and anxiety because of it.  One of my younger sisters in Christ said she  had listened a song I sang on Facebook live called “I see you” and she shared how God used that song to minister healing to her heart.  She was suffering from the fallout of old trauma being stirred up and the anxiety and self-protective fear response had kicked in.    As she combined what the Holy Spirit was speaking to her personally and what He was saying to her through His song  it was as if, well let me quote what she said, because she says it so well…

I’ve just felt God telling me “I see you. Look into my eyes and let all the trauma from that moment vanish. Let me hold you. Tighter than the trauma and the pain. I’m here. I won’t force myself on you, but I want you to know that I’m here and I love you. And I’m ready when you are.” And when you sang your song tonight I felt seen completely by God and held completely. And for once, I didn’t feel like I was fighting it. It felt safe. Warm. It felt overpowering but in a good way. And for once I felt all the memories from that moment just go dull. They were overpowered by God’s furious love. It just brought me to a place of praying “God I want to be all in. Overcome by passion for you. Overcome by your love. I don’t want to run anymore. I don’t want to hide anymore. I just want to burn for you. Take me back to the place where it was only about you, and all I wanted was just to be with you. Take me back to that wide eyed wonder I used to have before trauma stole my passion and zest. I want to be like a child again, full of unwavering trust; unaffected by the brokenness of this world because I was consumed with you and only you. Take me back to that place.” So thank you. Thank you for being obedient in sharing. Thank you for helping me enter into God’s presence in a new and deeper way tonight.

It is stories like this that make me rejoice for being obedient and singing on Facebook live.    Her words encapsulate the effect I pray and dream the Holy Spirit would have on the many who are hurting and suffering from trauma and it’s effects.   There are many, many more hurting hearts out there that need to experience the love of Jesus through the Holy Spirit who have experienced trauma and fear.   Ok Kelly, I get it, God is doing a new thing and using the songs you sing to minister healing to others but what about fulfilling an old promise.  Well in June 1997, the same Holy Spirit who led me to write and the sing this healing song said this to me…

“The coming devastation of the earth will cause many to fear for their lives.  It will create a mentality of almost craziness because of the high levels of anxiety and fear.  It is to these people many people will throw up their hands in despair because seemingly nothing can be done for them.  The trauma these people have experienced has scarred their hearts and nothing short of the healing balm that only Jesus can give will set these prisoners free and heal their wounds.  Kelly, I will bring healing through the music I give you to write.  People will listen and be brought into My manifest presence where I will heal them and set them back on their feet,  ground in the knowledge that I love them and that nothing shall separate them from my love, not even global devastation.

God gave me a new song and he fulfilled an old promise and this 50 year old-man is excited about what obeying Jesus in this new adventure being planted in Winnipeg for this next season. If you want to continue to hear more about this please sign up for our newsletter, and subscribe to this blog.   We are sending out a newsletter once a month starting this week and I invite you to opt in to that if you like as well.

Here is the link:

https://mailchi.mp/3760e755754a/firerunner-ministries

As always there will be a link to the Facebook post of the song that Jesus used to minister healing to sister in Christ  I hope you too are ministered to by the truth that God sees you and hears you and loves you.

Be blessed to be a blessing.  Please take a listen and allow  Jesus to sing His love over you!

https://www.facebook.com/718431818/videos/10157920910621819/

P.S. – I’m going through final discernment process to get an EP or a single or two  to introduce myself and FireRunnerMusic and Ministries to the bride  of Christ.  God-willing one song before Christmas!!!   We believe in freely sharing what God has given us, trusting God to give back to us through those we serve with the gifts He has given as we believe the worker is worth their keep.   Interesting fact it takes approx. $157.00/day to meet my minimum daily needs when coupled with my wife’s 1/2 time salary as youth & children’s ministry director.  We are hoping to raise $7000.00 for our initial recording word and initial web presence.  Your generous giving will allow us to give  what Jesus has asked us to give both “live” and in Spirit-filled recordings to minister healing in Jesus name to many.  All gifts over $25 are eligible for tax receipts, and gifts given to FireRunnerMusic&Ministries will be matched up to 15% up to a maximum of $1000/individual donor if given through their website, to donate click. Our ministry operates under another organization called Bridges of Hope International Development Agency (BOHINDA) based in Lethbridge, AB.  Their mission is to help people launch, manage, and market their charitable cause.  Thus a perfect fit for FireRunner and we are deeply grateful for their adoption of FireRunner into their cause.   All receipts for gifts given for FireRunner are given by this organization. Here is our donation page: https://www.bridgesofhope.ca/firerunner  or the Alberta Treasury Branch matching donation program (15%) under Bridges of Hope, choose the FireRunnerMusic and Ministries project or simply click on this link:  https://atbcares.benevity.org/community/cause/124-863616843RR0001

Revival 2017 and Our First Nations Brothers and Sisters

Eyes that see!

Hello my friends.  It has been too long, and the Lord is telling me I need to begin blogging again.  I had the privilege of being a worship leader at a special gathering of Eagles held at Shekinah Retreat Centre north of Saskatoon.   Why eagles you might ask?  Well it was a gathering of prophetically gifted people  in the body of Christ.  The eagle represents keen vision in the animal kingdom and reflects aspects of the character of Christ as reflected in the four living creatures surrounding the throne.  Thus eagles or the prophetic gift or seer gift was present in abundance at this small gathering.   Many at this gathering were First Nations people from different parts of North America.   I was invited by a sister in the Lord who is First Nations whom I had spent significant time in ministry practicing doing harp and bowl worship about 12 years ago which included singing the Scriptures spontaneously.   When I asked her what she really wanted me to do she said she wanted me to lead the gathering of eagles into the throne room of God.   I have to admit that while I do have a calling to lead people into the presence of God through music, when she stated it like that,  it made me a little apprehensive.  It is a high calling, and I am totally depending on God through the Holy Spirit to do it.  Before I left I sensed the Lord saying that I needed to humble myself and ask a few people to pray for me as I went, the anxiety left me as I humbled myself and asked for prayer.   Did I play all my notes perfectly, did I sing all the lyrics correctly, did I make an embarrassing mistake once or twice, no, no, and yes.   But did I lead the people who came into the Presence of God.   Based on what those who gathered have told me, they said I did help them get there.   I am really thankful to God for this.

It is really a mystery this business of worship.  Jesus says the Father is looking for worshippers who worship in spirit and in truth.   This means that the invisible part of us is engaged in true worship and it also means that what we say and sing through our spirits must be true.   The presence of God dwells in the throne room of God in heaven.  From the Scriptures we know that is where He is right now, together with the Lamb of God His one and only Son at His right side.    Jesus and His apostles teach that through His broken body and shed blood Jesus made a way for us to enter the presence of God, right into His throne room in heaven.   The veil to the holy of holies was ripped to show that truth on earth in the temple in Jerusalem.    Jesus said He would not leave us orphans when He left but would give us the gift of Himself in the person of the Holy Spirit.  This Spirit is pictured as a river of life flowing from the throne of God in heaven to the earth and is described as rivers of living water coming out of our belly or gut or innermost being of the true believer in Christ.  When I lead in worship and play the piano or keyboard I can feel the flow of the river of God through me as I fix my spiritual eyes on Jesus and the Father in heaven and worship Him.  The Spirit of God is the connecting being that allows me to be on earth and connected to heaven and able to access the throne room of heaven.  It is so awesome to be able to come into God’s presence and declare His worth!  As I enter into worship in the throne room, those who are with me begin to to experience what I am experiencing through the medium of musical sound and words and sense the Presence of God in their spirits.   From this place once we are engaged in worship it seems to easy for God to give us gifts from His Spirit of all kinds and then He responds to His kids building us up in our faith and healing our hearts and bodies.  He is amazing to watch in action through His body:)

Now the Revival piece, earlier I commented on Luis Palau’s word that He believed Revival would begin in 2017 in Canada.  After he declared that I described being flat on the floor in what some call travailing prayer  crying my heart out as the Holy Spirit confirmed I was weeping because I had been praying for 30 years for revival in Canada and to know it is near caused my heart to burst as the Holy Spirit continues to move me to pray.   What happened that makes me say Revival has started, well let me tell you.   Revival happens when God’s people convicted by the Spirit humble themselves repent and seek God’s face and ask for forgiveness.   When God responds and forgives, He also refreshes and fills us up with His Spirit again and we feel alive and connected to God in ways that because of the deadening and hardening effect of sin and the curses that follow we didn’t before.  That is the beginning of Revival, I believe I saw this weekend.   The next stage of Revival is the multiplication stage of what is to come, the impact on the rest of the church and the lost coming into the kingdom in droves.  Let it come Lord, let it come!

Now during this gathering a precious sister in the Lord, Linda Bird confronted us again with the atrocities done to First Nations people and the broken promises and unfaithfulness of Canada to their side of the treaty.   She said she often feels that she is constantly repenting for her sins and identifying and repenting for the sins of others but rarely does she have someone repent or ask for forgiveness of her and her people.   So the Holy Spirit worked and convicted us as she spoke and a number of participants came forward or simply expressed Spirit convicted requests for forgiveness acknowledging the sins of themselves personally and their forefathers against the first nations people in their family line.  I knew her statement that you pray for Revival and expect it to comes without dealing with the broken covenant with First Nations and the atrocities done to them.   I knew that probably I should go forward on behalf of my family and my heritage as part of the mennonites and say something but I wasn’t sure what and I wanted it to be genuine from the Holy Spirit and from my heart.   So I waited, then the next thing I knew the Holy Spirit had moved me to go up to this precious sister and face to face express my gratitude for her nation signing the treaties and giving up their land at such a high price and many atrocities so that me and my family could have a safe place to come where we would have religious freedom and not the threat of war.   We had come from a very traumatic experience in Russia and interestingly it seemed like I felt some of the trauma from Russia get expressed through me even though I had not first hand experienced the horrors of Machno and his gang who murdered, raped and pillaged many in the Mennonites colonies  during the anarchy of the Russian Revolution and famine in Russia before my great grandfather John Wiens came to Canada in 1925.   I confessed that we as Mennonites were guilty of pride and haven’t appreciated and honoured the First Nations people  and the treaties the way we ought to,  given their great sacrifice and promises made.    I asked for her forgiveness on behalf of my people from her and her people.    She graciously did and prayed a blessing on me and my people and on my land and my farm.   I cried many tears through the process and my soul was cleansed by God’s Spirit and a relationship was restored and blessing from God now will begin to flow to our land and theirs.  There is only one way to deal with innocent bloodshed, and that is through covering it with the blood of Christ through identificational repentance and faith in Jesus Christ.   I knew what my sister was saying was correct because the Lord showed me many years ago there are two major things setting us up for judgment from God in Canada, one was shedding of innocent blood through abortion and the other was the broken treaties with First Nations people which also resulted the death of many innocents not to mention horrible abuse of children through residential schools and the broken families from the 60’s Scoop.     After this happened, later on my sister in the Lord, Jean asked me to play New Day Dawning, a song I haven’t played for many years now.   The Lord gave me this song after asking me to write a song to show His vision for Saskatoon and Saskatchewan.  It is about turning to Him and seeing an amazing new unity in the body of Christ between Red, Brown, Yellow, Black, and White Children of God.    It felt so good to sing that song knowing that we had responded in obedience to the call of the Lord that day which is very much in line with His call in this song to the body of Christ.  I was excited because we were moving forward in God’s plan in obedience.   2 chronicles 7:14 says If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and  turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and forgive their sin and heal their land.   James 5:16 says also”. Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.  The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.    This simply restates what God said to Solomon that if we confess our sins and turn to God he will forgive and he will heal us and our land.

So am I seeing signs of Revival in 2017 beginning?  Yes I am praise God.   God met us in a very powerful way this weekend and we are forever changed and I only told you one little part of what happened 🙂   The season is changing, the cold dark winter of sins curse is broken and new growth and multiplication will be the result of our repentance and forgiveness from God.   How about you, what are you seeing in 2017 now that it is almost over that would corroborate revival is beginning in Canada or wherever you are?

This weeks song will be the old song New Day Dawning, which we have entered into in a new way this last weekend in Saskatchewan.  Hope you enjoy it, feel free to download it if you can, it is yours for the taking!   Have a blessed day!

The Song of the Lord is a Shame Buster!

Happy Family Day to my Canadian readers! One of the privileges of being a ministering musician or minstrel is having the opportunity to share Jesus heart or our Fathers heart for others through a song. In the context of the Scriptural command to to be filled with the Spirit and to sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs this would come under spiritual songs. Spiritual songs can come us in our life ahead of a gathering of the saints or they can come from the Holy Spirit right in the moment in a gathering of the saints as we are worshiping the Lord. Some might say that is is a “Rhema” word rather than a Logos written word filled song. So it is something that the Holy Spirit impresses upon your heart as a singer that is specifically for you or for the congregation you are ministering in or for a specific person or group of people within your congregation. It is rooted in Scriptural truth and may in fact be the Holy Spirit reminding you of Scripture and He is asking you to sing this truth from His heart over His bride right now to help them overcome the enemy’s lies in their life.
One of the great schemes of the enemy is to bind us up in shame over the things we have done or coming out of the sins that were done to us especially when we are young as they have a huge impact on how we think about ourselves. Right now I’m in a conquers group led on video by a pastor named Ted Roberts, facilitated by my friends Stuart and Linda Kasdorf.   In this group we are there to learn how to live as someone who conquers our enemy and as Paul says in Romans 8 to be more than conquerors through Christ who loves us as we help others conquer . This is our sweet revenge against our enemy who has done so much to hurt us. What are we dealing with in this group? Sexual bondage and addiction. Pastor Ted says if you ever want to clear a room full of Christians just say that you are struggling with sexual bondage, almost anything else will be easily accepted as a struggle except that.

The shame associated with sexual bondage and or addictions is huge! The fear of rejection, condemnation or judgment coming from other Christians or our parents or other authority figures often is massive so we hide what we are caught in because of fear and shame. One of the things I am learning in this group is that sexual bondage and addiction comes out of trying to deal with the pain of wounds inflicted because of the sins of others against us that we have not healed from.   Inside these wounds our enemy inserts lies about us that holds us captive until the Holy Spirit opens our hearts up and cuts to the depth of the wounds and speaks His truth there instead. As we submit to and believe what our Father says about us instead of what our enemy said to us we gains strength to resist the enemy which is rooted in our new identity in Christ. We are now more than conquerors, we are overcomers Jesus tells us and shame is swallowed up and we are now strengthened to resist temptation in that area based on a new core belief.
Now how here is how this has worked itself out in my life as a believer and minstrel who has struggled and who has wounds. One time when I was in an English class in University I was required to read a novel which described a sexually immoral act. After reading it I experienced both repulsion in my mind but to my horror my body responded sexually to what I read and I acted out on that response inspite of my repulsion. So now that repulsion was not just against that act in my mind, now it was against myself now as I had allowed myself to sin sexually against myself and God and my wife.   I was now filled with shame and self hatred. Surprisingly the Lord Jesus and our Father in heaven came to me in a Holy Spirit filled song later that day as I was repenting and asking for forgiveness and desperately wanting to be cleansed of the guilt and shame I felt. What I believe the Lord was doing is saying yes I not only forgive you for what you did but I a m making sure that you do not fall prey to the lies of the enemy that this somehow changes who you are. You are a child of God and you are an overcomer.

So here is a simple version of a song I hope will speak to your identity in Christ as an overcomer!

Overcoming One